The past week or so has been an emotional rollercoaster. I’ll be honest, I’ve been through some hard experiences in my life, but I never broke down and felt so powerless like I did recently. So much has happened, I wouldn’t even know where to start if I told you everything. Luckily when I was experiencing my lowest point, something in my subconscious kicked into high gear and was like, “There is no way in hell I’m going to let you crash and burn. You are going to get through this, and it will be much better than you could ever imagine.”
In times of crisis, there are always opportunities to learn and grow. If you take a look at John D. Rockefeller, he was able to keep a level head, emerge in times of crisis, and gain 90% control of the oil industry. While everyone else was losing their heads and giving into fear, Rockefeller seized opportunity.
I realized a few of my mistakes, things that I ignored and pushed to the side, my real priorities, and how all of these factors ultimately pushed me into a huge mess that I should have seen coming. Going forward, I have a better idea of what I’m going to do differently. I’ve learned to trust my gut more, and I’ve gained a valuable lesson on how to distinguish intuition from fear.
I’m waiting on Re-Create Your Life by Morty Lefkoe to come in through mail. I found out yesterday that he had passed away on November 11, 2016. Unfortunately, some trolls hacked and vandalized their website, so I couldn’t find out any details. His wife, Shelley Lefkoe, had helped me tremendously in removing limiting mental blocks 3 years ago, around this time. So I thought I’d get my hand on Morty’s book in order to practice the Lefkoe method myself. I’ve tried NLP before, but honestly, the Lefkoe method is probably one of the best methods I know that helps you to change your mindset quickly and effectively. So, I’m looking forward to reviewing the method again to refresh my mind.
Although it’s been a late start, I will be focusing on these goals for now:
1) Having my PC ready to go
2) Restarting the 100 pushup challenge and getting to 30 pushups by the end of this month
3) Posting videos at least once a week
There are a few other goals that I am working on privately. I decided to hold off my sleep goals for later since recent events made my sleep go haywire. As long as I’m eating well and exercising, my sleep will come back. I also want my PC ready since the majority of my projects have been put on hold without it. I know, I’ve been trying to get it fixed for months. So aside from getting my teeth situation resolved, which has somehow bumped its way into 1st place as a priority, my PC is my second priority as it will naturally allow me to achieve all my other goals more easily.
It’s a bit of a headache as I feel as if I’ve been pushing and pulling against other people’s intentions and priorities. But, I am no longer settling for anyone else’s goals if it conflicts with my priorities, goals, and causes me to feel misaligned. I’ve already experienced the huge headache it could cause in my life. It’s possible that I might have some lingering subconscious beliefs that I have to resolve before I create major changes. Until that book comes in, I will work around it as much as possible.